So my thinking right now is I'm going to keep this train running through the Eagles game tomorrow because I do not want to stop right now because if I do then the Eagles game will not be fun.... Good old addict logic right there.
My off days are Sunday and Monday so I'll have all of Monday to sober up. And while this is definitely the biggest Bender I've ever been on with this stuff, It's very much easier to bounce back from than alcohol... Like I've only had a few beers. Anyway, full day and a half of getting my ass right should do the trick. Whereas when I do the same type of bendor with booze, It takes way longer and there's like a whole very gross detoxing process. Blow doesn't have that at all but I've never done this much for this long, so I guess we'll find out. I'll report back.
Also this week and a half was so embarrassingly expensive that's perhaps the most embarrassing part. Oh and Pam's not talking to me at the moment. Hopefully I can fix that. I'm not sure so that's actually the worst part. But then second worst part is I spent an irrational amount of money and I didn't even get anything cool for it like a 98-in TV....
There are consequences but I don't want to just sit here and like bitch all day long. It is a lot of fun though. that's why I do it. It's you know it's not like I'm paying some guy to Give me a shovel and have me dig a ditch. But it leads to shit like Pam not talking to me so that's awful. I'm just not great at seeing the forest through the trees. Like if I have a chance to get instant gratification I kind of jump at it. It's who I am. It's who I've always been and as you can see it leads to problems.